Love Song

I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain
But I walked the hill of calvary

Chorus:
Just to be with you, I'll do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you, I'll give anything
I would give my life away.

I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
All of those dreams are an empty emotion
It can never be done
I've never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

Chorus:
Just to be with you, I'll do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you, I'd give everything
I would give my life away.

(Bridge)
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I'd give you
But I promise, I would do it all again.

Chorus:
Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.

Love Song - Third Day

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Mooregirl came over for dinner tonight. It was lovely. Good to have a few laughs and be silly at times! We then headed out and went to a supper here at college for the women. A few of the faculty wives spoke about some of their experiences and they shared a verse that has been significant to them. All four of them who shared, all four of the verses, I felt God's assurance.
God will not test me more than I can bear. God will be with me in all things. God is the same today, yesterday and tomorrow.

I am still feeling quite burdened, but I know that God is with me, he loves me enough to send Jesus. Which is why the song above is precious to me tonight. It is another reminder of God's mercy and his grace.

I am thinking of using the above song in my talk tomorrow night. We are all broken, but yet we are cherished.

The question is: how do we respond to God's offer of salvation?

I jigged class today.
Met up with RJG to do some greek this arvo.
He described my mood quite well. He told me that I look as though I have the weight of the world on my shoulders. I think he is right about how I am feeling right now.

But you know what...
I don't need to bear this weight. I need to trust God. I need to give it over to him.
*slaps cheek, wake up and do it then*

study space

It's not too bad at the moment, but I would like to see it clear in the next couple of days.



But then again, I have been trying to clean the rest of my room for the last week too, and that never seems quite finished.

touched

I was touched yesterday when Mooreboy (and Mooregirl) told me that they had put me down as an emergency contact for their eldest at preschool. He started on Monday, and apparently, I am on the list as one of 2 people (other than themselves) who can pick him up from preschool if it is required.

Made me realise all the more just how much I love their friendship and love being part of their family. It amazes me how time and time again, God will move me in different spheres of life, and there is families there that I grow strongly attached to, so much so that I feel a part of them. I am so blessed in this college community to have a couple of families that I feel very much a part of.
Today when I walked out of class early as I was struggling to sit still, I walked over to where Junior Jivers was happening and I saw Charis or I should probably say that she saw me, when I saw her she was running over to me and gave me a hug!
It was a precious moment for me.

Being part of family life is something I must continue to place a priority on in my life in ministry.

How long O Lord

My weary body cries out

I may not look my age ;) but I have come to the realisation that I certainly am feeling it. Once upon a time I would bounce right back after a night out, after severe sleep deprival. Even last year I wonder about how I managed to commute and not sleep. This year I am struggling. Last night's sleep count was four hours and I am not coping too well on it.

I have quite a few deadlines this week. If you are of the praying inclination, please pray that I will not be overwhelmed, but just focus on each task as it heads my way, deal with it and move on.

Liladurchgang

Gott aber erweist seine Liebe zu uns darin, daß Christus für uns gestorben ist, als wir noch Sünder waren. Um wieviel mehr werden wir nun durch ihn bewahrt werden vor dem Zorn, nachdem wir jetzt durch sein Blut gerecht geworden sind! Denn wenn wir imit Gott versöhnt worden sind durch den Tod seines Sohnes, als wir noch Feinde waren, um wieviel mehr werden wir selig werden durch sein Leben, nachdem wir nun versöhnt sind.

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Ich denke, dass ich dabei bin, in Römern 5 eine Zeit lang noch zu arbeiten!

How much more!

I have been reading Cranfield on Romans 5. Am totally loving his work. I am at least a week behind my class at this point as they have already moved onto Romans 6, but hey, what the heck, I am so totally getting into it.

It’s is God’s grace by which I stand. It is in God’s grace that I boast. It is the grace that is found in Jesus Christ.

How much more then? That is the refrain that is stuck in my head when reading this passage. How much more? How much more then has Christ done to remove the consequences of sin, that is, death? How much more is it that Christ has done in that he has dealth with not just one man’s sin, but the sin of many?

How much more!

a real threat? who knows!

A typical night at the chateaux de partae will consist of the never-ending battle against the local wildlife. Unfortunately wildlife in this city is of the roachkind.
We have baits, we spray, and to date there have only been 4 live roaches spotted in this abode. But that is 4 too many for my liking. Or for English Lass’ liking for that matter. She keeps threatening to move home! (I’m still not quite sure just how seriously I should be taking that threat)

presents

as some of you may know, my dad is a tradie. A couple of weeks ago, he presented me with my first ever power tool. It was all very exciting.
Apparently the guys down at Hardware and General found out about this. So they sent home a present for me. I am now the proud owner of a drill bit set.

Now I just have to work out how to use it!

ahhh for a sleep in

it has been a tough weekend, but I have come out the other end of it reinforced in God's goodness and love for me his daughter.


on a more suprising note
after spending the weekend at my parents, I am hanging to get back into my own bed. I thought that it would be nice sleep ins over there, but now to be. A night in my parent's room as they were out of town, and then a night in my bro's room as he was on a surfing mish. Neither night I slept well. So here's to hoping for a good night tonight! I never thought that I would be this settled this quickly into my little place. I guess it is a good thing.

at least class doesn't start until 10 tomorrow. Then I MUST and I WILL go to the library!

What makes it hard for you to trust God?

This was the question asked at youthsurge last night.
I think my answer would be:
when i doubt or forget his goodness.

another day...

bed won the battle last night
another day, another 8am doctrine lecture with doylie,I was going to say another coffee, but I woke too late this morning to make one. This morning we were treated to a sermon by Jonathon Edwards. I was a little dissapointed that we didn't get to listen to it all the way through, so I might put it on tonight and listen to the end of it.

yup, I didn't quite finish the essays in the way that I would prefer, but that is ok. RJG and I went through last years NT2ii paper. It was interesting, helpful and depressing.

jumping in puddles

having stripped off my soaking wet jeans, I now sit and download the fun filled evening that was had...

the day started dreary, with another 8am lecture. I spent the morning wondering how I would be able to make it through the day.
BUT YES, the day did evolve!
Doyle for Doctrine at 8am, yup, well not much more to say than "I wish I'd made a triple expresso, not just a double"
OT Canon and Text, not really sure what was going on there, but it is my own fault for not doing the pre-reading.
PtOB spent our Romans class today to talk about NT Wright's visit yesterday, which I found most engaging and feeling a little lost, but also wanting to read some more (which is always a good sign).
Lunch was spent in the lovely company of English Lass, and we discussed domestics, logistics, and vegie buying schedules.
I spent the next hour with some friends, where I chaired a discussion on the place of music in the church meeting. (interesting, maybe more thoughts to come on that later)
Then came chick's chaplaincy group...
Followed by a Heeb session with Swan. She taught me the ins and outs of compund shewa's and stuff. And we got to have a quick weekly catch up, which was nice.
Walking back to college, I bumped into some fellow Heeb students, and so chilled and ran through heebs with them for a while.
Finally got home at 5:30!
Now the fun begins....

Cooked dinner for Trinity and the Irish TG from SMBC. Much laughs. The Irish TG (hence for referred to as ITG), is a friend of English Lass' from a few years ago. So Trinity and I got to sit back and be amused by their accents.

Then, one of the guys from SMBC had organised an outing to the Marly. So of course we had to go drop in. Might I add, that that is the first time that I have been out to the Marly since moving into the city!!
Was fun hanging out with old and new friends. I hope we do it again soon.

Then walking back, the silly spirit bit me. Knowing that I had to come home to be writing these 2 exegeticals on Romans 5 for tomorrow, I was just itching to let all my silliness out. Linking arms with Trinity, I proceeded to stop in front of a puddle, got her to look down at it, and you guessed it, I jumped smack bang in the middle of it, soaking both of us!
Then got the hysterics.
I think after the weekend, I needed to have a good laugh.
Am feeling better now. Although am severly tempted to put off doing these essays, and submit them to RJG on Friday. I mean, it isn't as though we haven't got stuff to work through tomorrow, he is taking me through my NT2ii paper to pick holes in it.

But alas, my bed cannot be seen amidst the mess of papers, so I guess that leaves me working for a little while longer.

I am struggling between social and study life at the moment. I want to study, well at least I want to want to study. It seems that at every turn I am faced with another option of a social event. Last night it was Jedi Master's birthday, so we went out to this delish vegan place for dinner.

As some of you know, I have been experimenting more and more with painting. Now, my parents have enjoyed some of these (dare I say it) artworks, and they have been gradually filling our lounge room, but for the first time, I painted something for someone other than family, with them in mind. I gave Jedi Master a canvas (with paint on it!) for his birthday. I was a little dubious about this, as you never really know how art can go down, or what style someone is or likes. I think he liked it, or at least he was being polite, and thanked me for it. (JM, if you read this, am totally not offended if you want to hide it away under a book or something!)

But as for art, I think I need to be disciplined, and put it away for the next week or so.

I think a quiet night in tomorrow night is in order. English Lass is going out, so I can cook my potatoe and rice curry, clean my room, and get stuck into readings. Also it is a late library night, so I may head up there at some stage to do some more copying for my essay.

Ok, ok, enough of the marathon, really is time for me to run away (and join the circus)

What: is the jay more precious than the lark because his feathers are more beautiful? (Petruchio, IV.iii)

Gefühle

It has been a while, but lets see how rusty i am!

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Im Laufe der letzten Woche habe ich eine volle Reihe von Gefühlen gefühlt. Jetzt weiß ich, dass Gefühle gute Dinge sind, aber manchmal ich sie gerade zerquetschen will. Anfang letzter Woche war ich in kurzer Zeit eines tizz. Verwirrt, und in alle Richtungen. Ich verbrachte eine Zeit mit Ould, wer mir half zu sehen, dass ich versuchte, meine Gefühle zu zerquetschen, wie ich nicht zugeben wollte, dass ich sie hatte, oder dass sie ein ok Ding waren. Er half mir zu sehen, dass Gefühle tatsächlich ein gutes Ding sind, es anerkennen, sich damit befassen, und damit fertig werden.
Obwohl ich kämpfen und diese Gefühle nicht wollen kann, muss ich der Tatsache gegenüberstehen, dass sie ein Teil des Lebens sind.

my body cries out in disgust

I think my body is in shock tonight. I fed it red meat today, not only once, but twice! I'm trying to get my iron count up so that the doctor doesn't give me another lecture when I go back in a couple of weeks. Eating green leafies are a much more my style (esp with the cost of meat these days), but it isn't really working well. My stomach is having a hard time tonight.

On a more positive note, my bro got discharged tonight from hospital. For two reasons mainly. They didn't have enough beds, and they got sick of him pacing the halls! They wanted to keep him in another couple of days, but he is quite a trying patient.

i haven't even watched it recently, but i can't get it out of my head

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair.
I hate the way you drive my car.
I hate it when you stare.

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind.
I hate you so much it makes me sick.
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right.
I hate it when you lie.
I hate it when you make me laugh;
Even worse when you make me cry.

I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call,
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you;
Not even close;
Not even a little bit;
Not even at all.

i need to get into gear this morning

What would you attempt to do if you knew you could not fail?
-Dr. Robert Schuller

just got in from the hospital, my bro is doing ok. more bored than anything else really.

sleeping at my parents tonight
one of my other bro's birthday tomorrow
forgot to get him a pressie (slacker)

sleep calls

i feel as though it has been a long time since i have seen my bed. in all reality, it has just been a little over 40 hours. i didn't think i would be back home today, but the series of events that took place has meant that somehow, i am now in the city, back at home, but without a car.

my bro is doing ok. he had to have surgery this arvo. he shattered his left wrist, and has broken his right one.
he should be home from hospital tomorrow.

i hope this teaches him to slow down a little, or a lot as the case might be.

fun fact of the morning

A coconut is the largest known seed in the world. Once a coconut falls from a palm tree, it takes about three years for this seed to take root and sprout into a new tree


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mum is here, change over of shift, time to head back into the city

bored

was about to say that i was watching the Olympics, but then realised that it is the connonwealth games! d-er fred.

i have discovered that these seats aren't fantastically comfy.

also discovered that dy police station don't have my bro's wallet or phone, which leaves them still missing.

although there is plenty of action, I am still bored.
some chick has come in with a bite of some kind which they need to work out what it was and give her the appropriate antivenom

a grandma in the bed opposite my brother has called me over to explain the intricacies of legal aid

and, well, yup, at this point, no and

except for

bored bored bored

live it is

recently a friend of mine brought us

'live blogging from a birth',

now, I present you with 'live blogging from ER'!
well, my bro is doing ok, considering he fell off a balcony in a set of units. Am still yet to work out what floor he was on, where all his belongings have ended up, and how many bones are broken. where things stand, he is doing ok. looks as though he has at least one broken arm, and possibly two (I wonder just how much tiling work he will be able to do in that state!). they have to wait for morning, for further xrays, but currently he is pretty much morph-ing it up.

Anyways, back to translating romans 7!

a quiet night at the folks!

decided to stay at my parents house tonight, so that I could have a relaxing sleep, but not to be.
just got a phone call from mona vale hospital, my brother has been admitted so I am about to head up there and sit with him.
apparently he is ok, but as i am the one who is the most awake, it will be me who gets to go up there.
will keep you updated.

o e i u ahhh

since deciding to take up hebrew, my life seems a little consumed by languages, and trying to get my mouth to do verbal gymnastics. but am totally enjoying it. i spent a couple of hours this arvo with RJG going over Romans 5 and i walked away totally encouraged and blown away by Jesus' love for us.
as that sesh was finishing, i saw some ppl from my heeb class, and so did some stuff with them. one of the added benefits of picking up hebrew in 3rd year instead of 1st, is that i have been getting to meet new ppl. i mean, like, i would meet some of the first years anyway, but it is just another way to meet some more, and get to know them. so that was a bit of fun. who would have ever thought they would hear or see the day that i said that ancient languages were fun. i know some of my school teachers would be suprised if they saw me now!

online at last

well i am back. English Lass and I finally have the internet at home. which also means that we are able to make calls. we haven't finalised the set up, ie, only one of our PC's is hooked up, but Dad is coming over on Sat to configure everything. made my first call on skype tonight, v exciting!

i also did some more painting tonight. i was feeling down the other day so i bought another canvas and got stuck into it. i finished it tonight, and have decided to call it 'the curtain is torn'. maybe one of these days i might get a digi camera and actually post some pics.

its good to be back online

yup...
broken windscreen = expensive

so does...
phone bill = $269.50

flying rock chips = broken windscreen

the light shines in the darkness

last night I had organised for our youth group to take a walk up to Barrenjoey lighthouse. I got glow sticks for all the kids, and the kids seemed to enjoy it. It is a mid-range difficulty walk, and is heaps of fun to do at night. We had some supper up the top. While we were up there, I gave a talk from John's gospel and 1 John, on Jesus being the light of the world, with the challenge of 'where are you walking? In the light, or in the dark?'
I think overall the night turned out. We went up the gentler, longer slope, and down Smuggler's which is faster, but narrower and steeper.
I woke up earlier than expected this morning, and no where near as sore as what I thought I would be.

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are you walking in the light?

Psalm 116

1 I love the LORD because he hears and answers my prayers.
2 Because he bends down and listens, I will pray as long as I have breath!
3 Death had its hands around my throat; the terrors of the grave[a] overtook me. I saw only trouble and sorrow.
4 Then I called on the name of the LORD: "Please, LORD, save me!"
5 How kind the LORD is! How good he is! So merciful, this God of ours!
6 The LORD protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and then he saved me.
7 Now I can rest again, for the LORD has been so good to me.
8 He has saved me from death, my eyes from tears, my feet from stumbling.
9 And so I walk in the LORD's presence as I live here on earth!
10 I believed in you, so I prayed, "I am deeply troubled, LORD."
11 In my anxiety I cried out to you, "These people are all liars!"
12 What can I offer the LORD for all he has done for me?
13 I will lift up a cup symbolizing his salvation; I will praise the LORD's name for saving me.
14 I will keep my promises to the LORD in the presence of all his people.
15 The LORD's loved ones are precious to him; it grieves him when they die.
16 O LORD, I am your servant; yes, I am your servant, the son of your handmaid, and you have freed me from my bonds!
17 I will offer you a sacrifice of thanksgiving and call on the name of the LORD.
18 I will keep my promises to the LORD in the presence of all his people,
19 in the house of the LORD, in the heart of Jerusalem. Praise the LORD!

a suprise from dad

I dropped in home (parents place) on my way home home tonight. In fact I am still here.
Dad had two gifts for me. One that he had told me about was that he had got me some circuit breakers as he didn't want either me or English Lass fiddling with the fuses. The second was a suprise.
Dad gave me an electric drill. My first ever power tool. I am stoked. In some ways I feel as though I have come of age in some bizarre way.
When Dad has been over to my place to do handyman stuff, I have been grabbing his drill and doing a few things here and there. But I have struggled under the weight of it. So this one is a nice small one, just enough to handle any of the daily odd things that might come up.
Dad stressed that it was in no way saying that he didn't want me to think that I couldn 't ask him to come over and do stuff. He is so sweet.

It is gone 9pm and I am still a 40min drive from home. I do not want to go into the week tired, so I am thankful for the late start tomorrow. Ahhhh to sleep in!

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just went online to buy the modem and plan for us to have internet at home, but realised that veritel are charging a connection fee which I didn't see anywhere on the website. I think we are going to have to rethink that one.

another sporadic outburst

life continues pretty much the same.
Class started this week, much to be read, brain already full, still no phone or net set up at home.
Was hoping to have it done by tomorrow, but the modem hasn't arrived yet (yes, that is because I haven't ordered it yet, I am going online now to buy it).
English Lass and I have decided for the time being to go without a home phone. We are going to use Skype for outgoing calls. She may even get a UK number for her friends and family to call her on.

What else, what else has been going on in my life?? Surely something...
Found out that I was accepted as a candidate for ordination. For those that know the history of that decision and application process may understand that I am glad to have that decision over and done with in my life. Although I know that it still means a few more commitments and stuff. Also it is good to know that as I reflect, I can see how God's hand has been at work through the whole thing.
Started giving Jedi Master cooking lessons. He came, observed, ate and left. He will hopefully replicate next time. I enjoy cooking, and I am enjoying showing both English Lass and Jedi Master some of the recipies that are locked away in my head. It is also good for me to rack my brain to make things up which fit complicated dietry requirements.
Discovered that Schleiemacher is an interesting read.
Got benched from song leading in split chapel. (totally fine with this)
Enjoying OT text crit stuff, which is suprising, as its not my usual love.

Time to head off to youth group.
Stay well